Tuesday, August 04, 2009

華梵ing

今天跟ALAN他們幾個淡江的學長們一起回學校~除了ALBERT學長外~其他都是華梵出來的~谷光學長也口試完了~~呵呵~可惜今天一直陰雨綿綿~加上SUE助教也不在~覺得有些失落...

新資圖~全景~可惜今天沒開~~好想進去看看喔~~><。。

但還好還有唐助教~︿︿好高興又可以看到狠熟的人~~呵呵~也看到新的CORNER~><。好豪華喔~XDDD還有FIREPLACE~~真COOL~~但中文系也太誇張了吧~還有吧台~超不合他們的風格~好像要到中文系的吧台買咖啡再到新的CORNER坐咖啡座~呵呵~~~︿︿


爆炸豪華的CORNER啊~簡直是“猩巴克“啊~


有壁爐的CORNER~裡面其實可以放東西~有看到類似卡拉OK的東西~哈哈~建平老師~你也太愛唱卡拉了吧~~哈哈~~
後來雖然一直下雨~我們還是狠努力地逛完全部的校園~又到新的資圖去參觀~

怎麼又是以一個師父為名的建築~冏~沒有冒犯的意思啦~只是在想怎麼有這麼多個師父的名字可以用~~XDDD哈哈~~
只是蓋了這麼久~怎麼還是跟去年看到的沒什麼差~XDD~唉好事多磨~原本以為可以去裡面看看的~好像狠豪華~XDDD呵呵~只是一直下雨~好像又回到以前上課的時後~~><。。。。不過最意外的事是以前住的鐵皮屋文化村封村了~超可惜的啦~~嗚~好懷念啊~~><。。。

Monday, August 03, 2009

太平山音樂會

太平山音樂會:狠吵的男兒當自強~就說回音會狠大吧~~~==

太平山音樂會:卡通組曲~小丸子~還有小紅豆~好聽~~~

Saturday, July 25, 2009

太平山音樂會 BEFORE


It kept raining. Hope it will stop by the evening. :( The way up here was so foggy & terrible ><... Thank god we are here XD

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

[轉貼] 翹翹板----寫的真不錯,推荐!![BLOGSPOT版本]

有個朋友在經歷一陣子的事業低潮後, 在前不久已走出低潮, 並分享這份圖文兼具的文章給我. 我覺得蠻有意思的, 分享給好朋友們.

願大家都能找到自己在生活與工作上的平衡點...

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Classic! MJ's Thriller MV

Really~~REally~~a Classic!! Love it!! So Much

Thriller 25th anniversary!!

RIP~MJ!! ><....

Monday, July 06, 2009

爆笑配音:超人特攻隊-小傑的攻擊 (台語版) Jack Jack Attack

媽啊~我要笑死啦~~~台語版~好有台味喔!!背景音樂爆炸白吃的啦~‘哈哈哈~~

Friday, July 03, 2009

Tired! OR reTired? (休息!OR 放棄?)

混了二年的研究所,搞了半年的BLOG跟FACEBOOK+TWITTER~!用了還是不會~狠討厭的無名~永遠沒進度的小說~房間都沒整理~螞蟻大軍都在演習了~整個狠虛~想休息~把遠離電腦一二天~或更久~

搞了一陣子的網誌和BLOG~人氣好像沒有TWITTER好弄~我真的是人氣殺手~別人只要秀個肉打二三個腦殘似的文字~人氣就飛上天~ 這是在預言我如果寫書也不賣嗎~嗯嗯~TW或許是個HECKHOLE~或許也是我自己才是個文學的HECKHOLE~~整個好想放棄!MAN~~HELP me getting rid of it! ==

ENGLISH VERSION OF “PONYO“ 英文版的波妞

ENGLISH VERSION OF “PONYO“ 英文版的波妞!麥特戴蒙 TINA FEY 孟漢娜的親妹妹配波妞 還有女王凱特布蘭琪配大海神母!宮崎駿另一個好看的卡通!早就看完了~但還想再看一次!Apple - Trailers - Ponyo

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Thursday, July 02, 2009

Now Reading it!

Drácula Drácula by Bram Stoker


My review


rating: 5 of 5 stars



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Different!

There was a time one of my friends asking me about studying abroad. What he said seen didn't mean anything but, to me, it looks like a thorn on my back. Keep bother my a long time though.

I've kept asking myself the same question all the time. And thinking what kind of world and life that friend and their "kind" are living in! To them, It seems never a problem go studying abroad. It's just a matter of your "need." Indeed, there isn't any problem in studying abroad. It's just...why I am going through is being questioned about NOT going abroad! Especially the kind of "good" student that others might see me as. But it's an awkward and practical question to either ask or answer.

It's a weir merit if one hasn't been studying abroad one would be incapable to either speak or teach good English. Even my students are going abroad on every vacation and holiday! It's...actually not bad! Frankly, It's really good for them. Yet the problem is--if one cannot go...economically incapable... is that bad?

It seems I AM and will be stuck in the place for good!

But the thing is when everyone is discussing about how they are going to study abroad in one place and constantly look back to me at the same time, then turn away back to their topics. How or what will you feel like? I don't quite know and would never want to!

It's a feeling of being different. Not only indifferent but different!

However, when people are talking about how their life sucks or what they dream about a better life than ever, I feel... totally satisfied. I know I may be too easy to be pleased or "desireless." But I AM actually happy with the life I have now! It seen I draw a circle and have myself living in it. Away from the outer world. But I still feel free living in my cage! Don't care whether this would scare off some other guys or employers. Put aside jobs and relationship. Just keep living in a Dalloway's/ Woolf's world. Madly in my writings. Looking out the window, as if I would never going to miss the azure, soothy sky at all!

What is the world they are living in? What is the like people have? I'm kinda know something about it, eventually! But back to my attic, I am my mad man. Yes! It's not woman's privilege to be mad in the attic, NOT ANY MORE!

I am a man with a different life in a different world? Totally exclusive from the world we see and know. Different from any living thing! It's more like their world than mine. Heaven or hell, it's all in the same world! it's around us. "The world behind the wall." Even it's just few centimeters away, there could be heaven on one side and hell on the other! I would never understand their world just like they can't realized mine. Like David in "North to Freedom," It's hard for people like him to get into a ordinary and peaceful life out there from the camp! People won't believe his story just like he couldn't know how to say it either. People never know what kind of life it's like. They rather regard it as some stories like fairy tales or even anecdotes. A story you would talk about it on the dinner table and cast it behind right after the meal no matter how sad or how fun it was. But to those who living in it, it would haunted them for the rest of their life!

Therefore, They rather just lock it deeply in their heart then buried with them, rotted with them, then perished.

The only thing one can tell is the deepest eyes looking at nowhere, once you catch it, there's no way out but being devoured into an endless, enormous abyss...

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

異生 Different!

有次,一個朋友在聚餐時,突然跑來問我:「ㄟ,大家都要出國了,你怎麼還在這?」

對啊,我也問著自己,也看著那位朋友,好像他們的世界中,出國去深造,好像不是個什麼問題,經費啊什麼的好像都不是問題,想去就去啊!但我不是在說出國深造有什麼不行的或是表示家境寬裕的,但不出國的呢?為什麼就要受到別人的質問和質疑?

當看到大家都紛紛出國去後,看著自己,仍困在國內,好像不出國就不叫學過英文的。沒出過國的,就沒辦法教好英文?

說困在國內好像有點言重了,但事實是什麼?當同學們聚餐時,都在討論著出國的事或計劃,只差大家沒一同轉過頭來看著我,再轉回去討論。那是什麼樣的感覺?我不知道,也不想知道!

當大家說著自己生活中有什麼遺憾或不滿足,而我卻覺得很幸福!在自己和外面的世界之間,劃個圈圈,把自己隔開!關在自己的牢籠中,卻覺得自由!也不管是不是會嚇跑想和我做朋友或想雇用我的人們,工作和感情,我都不管了!把自己囚禁在達洛維/伍爾芙的世界,瘋狂著書寫。看著窗外的天空,卻一點兒都不眷戀。

別人,是活在個什麼樣的世界?我好像能暸解一點兒,因為還是要面對!回到自己的閣樓內,就是個MAD MAN。

我是個異生的人?異於他人的生命體!他們的世界不是我的,是天堂也是地獄?就在我們身邊,沒有其他的分別,就算是隔著幾公分,對面也是天堂,而這兒是地獄?我不能體會他們的人生,相信他們也無法暸解我的。像是剛從集中營逃出來的DAVID,實在沒辦法再次融入其他一般人的生活!他既不能跟別人訴說著他以前是過著怎樣的生活,別人也無從體會。那樣的異樣人生,也像是童話故事一樣,很難讓人信服!或許只能像是奇人軼聞一樣,聽聽嘆息一聲就忘了,但對於異生的人來說,那是個多個深烙於心的痛!

說出來也是給人見笑算了…就埋在心裡,再埋在土裡,跟著肉軀的腐化,消失殆盡…

現在,唯一能察覺出來的,只有深得像死谷的眼神,像是一看到就無法自拔得陷入其中。

新背景音樂

來自法國的Stephane Pompougnac的Ghosts And Rose (Feat. Noemi)

是收自於他'07年的HOUSE新專輯:“Hello Mademoiselle“中!

希望您會喜歡本站的新面貌和新音樂!在NOEMI的擁懶嗓音中,

讓您有如置身於LOUNGE之中的錯覺!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

We'll Miss U, Michael J.

Last Friday at night, I was picking up my eldest sister, Brenda. I heard the radio from my car said Michael J. was found dead in his house. I was so socked and speechless. A time legend gone just like others did. A legendary superstar goes as legendary does. A dramatic fall of a shooting star! A brightest one. RIP Michael J.!

In a good way, you will never grow up again in your Neverland from above...or beneath...><... A greater deed paid for a great debt. When talking about debt, well, you surely have or had a lot of it!! ><.... Now you may never need to worry about that any more... XD Good for you! Anywho, you surely made a milestone for colored people/ African American. Not only in a entertainment business but in the White House as well. You all knew what/ whom I meant. >_O~ There would not be Beyonce, Will.i.am, or even 50 cents if you have never stood out! Set aside those scandals about you and your "interests." I'm sure no one is perfect. Even Hannah Montana sings/ says so!! :) Just... rest in peace then. Do not wake up like your MV "Thriller" ><... haha! but if you do, I think there will be a huge, warm welcome from all over the world!! (smile!!) heehee!

and for the last time... We will gonna miss u, Michael Jackson!

Monday, June 22, 2009

The Messenger RARE trailer

The Messenger RARE trailer
by Frankreich


I love it so much~ It's my 1st movie and my firs soundtrack!! Luc Besson I love ur movies so much!!!!

Friday, June 19, 2009

He's just not that into you/ me... WHATever!!!

So what? WE all make mistakes. WE all took some wrong messages from wrong guys. What're you wanna do to me? Sentence me to death? It's just like a piece of chocolate, not big deal. But just by making it a huge fuss can someone fulfill some sort of sick tastes and totally crashing other people's life! That's so immature! all of us. Saying the things that we didn't quite mean it and hurt somebody else so badly. What does it gonna end? When does it gonna end? Chase those who ran away and see them chasing others that run away from them like they just did to me. That's ridiculous all of us! Keep doing the circle stuff to see what or who will turn to the other way! Do I really never looked like someone's exception? Or will I? IT just not that into me perhaps the destiny...Alright~then~~I say it: He's just not that into you/ me... WHATever!!! Fine... just let it be... keep talking myself into living alone "happily ever after" ~heehee! Darn it! ><.... XD

02 iNot-Ryne Music Podcast, Nov 11,08


Inot Ryne grant present--my own podcast: iNot Try Music, introducing continuously with Sarah Brightman music series in movie "Repo! the Genetic Opera" . Hope U enjoy it!

01 iNot-Ryne Music Podcast, 05, 24, 08


Inot Ryne grant present--my first podcast: iNot Try Music, introducing at first with Sarah Brightman music series. Hope U like it!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

"I Am David" Original Soundtrack

"I Am David" Original Soundtrack

Rip from movie sections
music by Stewart Copeland
Artist: Various Artists


















01 The Bath
02 The Motorbike Ride
03 The Tour
04 Leaving Maria
05 In The Church (Mozart_ Ave Verum Corpus)
06 Home (Cold Water)
07 End Title

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Monday, June 15, 2009

Mrs. Dalloway's Fleurs

Mrs. Dalloway's Fleurs



Mrs. Dalloway said: I would buy the flowers myself.

So I bought some bouquets of balloon flowers & perfume lilies. One for living room/ bed room, one for porch, and a big one for bathroom! mmm... then my place looks really like home. A Dalloway style of life seems not bad at all! But some fleuristes are so... blood sucker! ><.....

The Serenade

The Serenade
...I know I can feel you for a long time
but I just don't know where to find you
We may be only an ocean away
or too close that we even senseless when we were past by...
...I know you were there... I know...
so peaceful and graceful...
Not an ordinary man...
but like as my guardian angel...
tender is you love...

I... can't wait to get close to your chest and feel your heart beats...
can't wait to merge into your embrace...
with a long night... I called your name twice
with endless prose...
I never know how much I miss you...
No English phrases could describe that feeling nor Mandarin...
I just hope that you will be showing up sooner or later...
hope your ever existence...
Hope... or wish...?
It matters or does it?
Dream matters... love matters...
Calling you a thousand times would only led me to an utmost madness.
Shall I remain pretending that I don't care it at all?
Shall I keep pretending that alone is fine?
Shall I keep looking & get hurt by some other jerks?
End these all I'm praying thee...
End these with thy kiss...
and have me poisoned in it...

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Couldn't I...

Couldn't I be ware? the slyness of men.
Couldn't I be so positive? A greater life I have now.
Couldn't I even know how to love & be loved?
Couldn't I be somebody's special?
All these questions come & go without answers...
and they probably won't be answered for good...
Maybe I'm just not a loving person type...
maybe I'm over-reacted...
or maybe.. I've thought too much...
Stop being so considerate might work
Just being a total jerk~ will I be loved again?
haha~that may be true~ but...
don't be ridiculous~ coz...
I wouldn't even like the person that only attracted by me in that way~
That would be ridiculous both of us...
I'm not a player in love games. &...
will never be...
If there aren't any men that would like to dedicate themselves for me and to me.
No men would like to make any effort on me. well... fine
fine by me... So... just let it be...
I'm not whining, I would no longer whining about life...no more!
I just try to let go...
If I can't be attractive to other people then
I won't force myself just in order to please someone else...
Even if I do... that would be someone that would be willing to do
something/anything for me or just...
"with truthful heart"!
just... you & me...
"Contra mundum"

Saturday, June 13, 2009

New Cover Look!

Designing new cover look! Hope you all would like it! ><... Angel of Trees


Friday, June 12, 2009

Hua Fan Revisited (2008) [Full Version]



{此為完整版帶旁白 Full Version with voice over} 自製的小影片~回憶以往上下學的沿路風光景緻 The day I went back to my college to see my old friends & TAs. On the way to the school and the way back, Therefore I recorded the view along the road. I felt quite sad for a moment with the music i was listening during the filming.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

錯過了還能怎樣?

錯過了還能怎樣?失去了就不會再回來... if you really into someone~ there shouldn't be any harms and hurts. If someone really like to try it all over again. just say it & the most important part... is to do it!! follow your heart, and listen what it tells you instantly. no hesitation no pulse. Just... forgiveness and nothing more... you are not bad. you just never try. and perhaps... neither do I... :)

Friday, May 29, 2009

Immaturity

Vicomte de Valmont 子爵:
Why do you suppose we only feel compelled to chase the ones who run away?(你認為人為什麼要強迫自己去追求那想逃走的人)

Marquise de Merteuil 女爵:
Immaturity? (出於幼稚?)

*引自電影1988電影「危險關係」(Dangerous Liaisons)女爵和子爵的對話*

Sunday, May 24, 2009

第一次的怪胎過客

第一次被當成怪胎…

只是當個過客

不被當一回事

還被當成不黯世事的蠢小孩!



像個不實的廣告~被退貨



被當成一個自己也厭惡過的那種人

感覺如何?



只能說

我內心的怪胎

終於忍不住獻出它的處女秀

真的FREAKED OUT



FREAKED OUT了…

第一次的怪胎過客,希望也是最後一次...

Over Seriousness Make Me Cry Out Loud

Author is dead, as soon as the work is done and published. I don't get it why people always likes to attach the work itself to the author. Didn't I make my ground that it is merely a piece of my negative trash? Want to know the real me or don't want to mislead your own thought about me? Please go look at my facebook. You will see how I am so different from the side you see/ had seen @ this god-damn-it puke hole. I don't want to mislead anyone what kind of person I am. It's just all unreal before you get to know me. But I think there is someone/something else that already has been "pre-destined". Can't force it or subject to change. Being misunderstood by others is always my "talent". I am quite get used to it. But still...I won't change the way I live just for someone else. But thanks anyway for any provocative/touche advise. Well, I just don't want to be pre-defined as someone I am NOT! Or someone awful.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

一事無成的笨鬼

以前小時候,有一個人很愛看故事書。因為只要一跟大家玩,他都會很愛哭。所以大家都不想陪他玩。他一哭,他媽媽就會安慰他,叫他去看故事書,所以才會養成看故事書的習慣。也很奇怪,一進入故事的情節,所有不愉快的事,就都不見了。當他愈是難過,就愈愛往書中的虛構世界跑去。

但是,有一本故事書,他看完後,卻一直把那個故事留在腦海中,每當他搞砸任何事,腦中就會浮現這個故事,就會有一個聲音告訴他:你就是那個一事無成的笨鬼,因為你什麼事都做不好!那故事就叫做「一事無成的笨鬼」!那應該是一個很好笑的故事,在敘述一個笨蛋生前什麼事都做不好,死後變成鬼要去嚇人害人也都一事無成!大家看完這個故事理當都會大聲嘲笑那個笨鬼,而他看完了卻感到很難過。因為那就好像是他的寫照,雖然他那時還小,但是卻常常因為笨手笨腳的,又愛好奇地亂碰別人東西,而糟到一陣責罵。又因為寫作業動作慢,字又醜,很簡單的功課也常常拖到很晚才要寫完。

長大後,面對感情也是二二六六的,常常做出讓人想不透的行為,甚至連自己都不知道在做什麼,也都不先想清楚後果。結束了一個自以為是的感倩後,良久不再敢面對另一個。或許是時間久了,或許是一直都是很隨便的處理感情的事。還以為自己變得成熟了,可以正常的面對下一個,結果像中了邪一樣,一個一個跑掉。大家像是見鬼似的,還是身上有貓薄荷似的,一個一個消失了。原以為是別人不積極。後來卻發現,原來自己的行為太過於積極,對感情投入過多的期望。加上從小就成長在一個父親毫無責任感的家庭中,從來就不知道什麼是快樂。因為自從三歲那件事情發生過後,他就失去對任何事情的快樂。他還是會笑,表面上的笑,常常也不知道在像什麼,像個失心瘋的人,只能對於某個奇怪的點,過於表達他的笑聲。像個閣樓中的瘋女人,什麼事都不在乎了,什麼事都與他無關,他的心,早就像死了一樣,但在心底深處卻希望有個英勇的騎士,從太陽的那端,奔來拯救他。可是別人都以為他在裝可憐,要不就是想要得到別人的同情,因為大家都不相信,這樣可笑的人生,竟然還會會存在我們生活當中!因為大家都不相信,所以他為了不要再傷及自己的自尊心,以及一再地在自己的舊傷口上撒塩,他不斷地包裝自己,一層又一層,害怕別人又會很輕易地把它掀開來,公然地嘲笑他。可是他沒辦法一輩子只能躲在角落自怨自艾,也沒辦法帶著包裝去愛別人。所以,包裝愈來愈大,裡面的膿也愈來愈嚴重,嚴重到好像沒有任何人能幫他分擔這樣的累贅。

所以,他面對了二個選擇:一個就是一再地讓自己傷害自己,另一個就是把自己包好,躲在沒人能找的到的角落,平靜的生活。二個選擇,同樣的結果,一事無成的笨鬼,只能一再地躲在角落,看著別人,再看著自己,不斷地自我催眠:「一個人就能過得很好!沒有負擔,沒有煩惱。」他愈想,愈是覺得如此。這樣,他就不必再為了別人的感覺,再次煩惱,因為他選擇了逃避!他心想著:「這就是我們這樣的人能過的生活!沒別的選則」不是望自尊大就是望自菲薄!像個永遠解不開的魔咒,吐不出來的毒蘋果。

王子不見了,白雪公主依然躺在琉璃棺中,看著天空嘆氣著,想著,其實這樣也能過著幸福快樂的日子,跟自己逃避現實吧!跟自已私奔去吧!這樣就不用再面對感情的冏境。當個一事無成的笨鬼,其實也不錯!反正到頭來,也是一個人來,一個人去,沒辦法永遠粘在一起。他愈想著好像就愈是如此。

跟你說吧!他沒辦法接受任何的失落和欣喜,他不相信任何幸福的結局。他曾經付出過一切,得到卻是失去一切。所以他還是選擇自己!活在自己創造的世界,沒有痛苦,沒有難過,沒有過多的猜疑,沒有任何不必要的想像。只有自己,想要怎樣就怎樣,想去哪就去哪,因為他的怪胎,不會出現了,在愁悵的夜晚,溫柔的親著他的三個怪頭,輕輕地向他道晚安……。至少他這麼覺得。

Friday, May 22, 2009

Femme Fatale Piano Music

And I...

And I Stood still...
looked out the sky so bright
Making a comment on nothing
Thinking, pondering, sleeping
Rose isn't red...no more
violet isn't purple
I saw through the window
there was a green bird
green bird sang along
green bird said to another bird
"see? there is the loony man inside the attic!"
"Again?" said the other, "Don't tell me he's singing that tone again while looks out the window."

but honestly, I would not know what they were actually saying. What would I care? Whom would i care? It's just a matter of nothing...nothing matters at all...

Thursday, May 21, 2009

不想…

不想…

不想等回應等很久
不想到最後一場空
不想~我不想

不想太早死會
但也不想終老一生
不想~我不想

不想嚇到對方
不想讓人有壓力
不想~我不想

不想讓人誤會我很忙
也不想讓人覺得我很NEEDY, GET NO LIFE

不想被人先捧得高高
再摔到谷底
不想~真的不想

不想覺得希望無限
到最後一場空一場空

不想有矛盾
不想再想~
想逃離這一切

不想再回到以前那種沒結果的苦戀
只想平平靜靜的談一場沒有壓力的戀愛!
對的人~不對的人~
我不想再想了~
就順其自然……

窗外的風又起了
窗口種的松樹小芽又長
太陽太陽啊~你在哪~
我的心像被挑空了一樣!
失去你的溫暖

你說呢?
一切只是有緣還是無份?

我不想再哭
也不想再悲傷的活下去

我不想…我不想…
再也不想…再想了。
(躺下,睡死~ZZZZZ)

Thursday, May 07, 2009

English Class 2009 II

English Class II Album

The children are all grow up! And by and by the time's going by... 3 years teaching those children, I can't say whether like them or hate them. I always think that I just want to save some money from the job, but sometimes I really enjoy teaching those kids, I feel very satisfied if I found they actually improve somehow and learn something after all... ><... can't bear to leave them><... Hope they all can learn something good from my class eventually... heehee... Jill! You can't hide haha... You have become so naughty and inattentive... well just wish you luck. I've already done what I can do...mmm... you are on your own then~~

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

English Class 2009

帽子下的悲殤

眼底的殤,心底的痛。一切都掩在帽子下。看不盡的悲殤…任其滯留在過去;今日的光,讓新芽發壯!自由的氣息,不是世上任何人事物可任意代之。珍惜眼前的一切,別在來日才後悔!

Seeing is believing, exclamation mark or question mark?

Seeing never equals to believing!
What you saw can't always be real.
What you have can't preserve forever!
Time to let go!
Let it go!
Make it free...

A day without fussy air

A day without fussy air
All clear sky make my day!
I'm totally calm and peace
in my wonderland!!
In My...BettySuarezLand!

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Upcoming Update!!

In next two weeks, there may be a great new banner for my Blogger spot! Hope u would like the new one as same as/ more than the old one you are seeing right now!! :P!!

Vanity unFair!

Vanity... never fair~ Dream isn't neverland! Just be your own star~ not glory though but not trouble either! Free to be who you are! You don't need to crave for a shiny stage just create your own then! Someday you will be somebody's star!

Friday, May 01, 2009

Exoticland

Exoticland! Arousing my desire to explore garden of eden in Danshui hillroad!

存在感

人。一開始怕大家乎視自己,之後又努力希望大家忘記自已的存在!un paradox d'Homme

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Ugly Betty~Back in Action!!!

WEE!!!!! YEEPII!!!!! LOVE THAT~ Coming next week on Thursday, April 30th!! Can't Wait!!!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

When I was ten & two

When I was ten & two,
I was innocent & happy.
so carefree & naughty;
so dreamy but bounded;
so young and run freely.
Seen happy but a little gloomy.
So there when I was ten & two,
I never thought I would end up like this
& went through like this....
So just let the wind of the day blew through my hair
& my fingers.
It's never that matters at the moment like this.
It's never matters at the moment like this...
even when dreams fall...

I felt falling into the same hole again!

Long ago, there was time of me being not myself. I was crazy in love and almost crashed me life. It took me so long to get rid of it. Yet now I think I might going through that over and again. I pray to god not to treat me this way. I've been praying for years to find someone to love me and treat me like something. What I need is pretty simple--considerate & care! Is that so hard to find? I just felt that I stood in the street alone and watch my only chance slipped away from my fingers. I felt that I've fallen into the same hole again unconsciously and helplessly. I felt so desperate & despair. And stupid, too. I don't want my life end up like this either die alone or get hurt over and over again. Even though seen tough, I really feel fragile. My delicate heart can no more take this again. I just need someone to protect me. Away from all these... I just feel lacking of something in my heart in depth. I feel so extremely unsafe inside. The feelings are so strong that keep me away from loving other people or caring them. But I need to be loved and cared so much like druggie craving for pills or syringes. I'm so helpless but you just walked away like other else. I hopped you would be different but still the same after all. I know men never learn and never change. But I just wish that somehow you will be different... It's hard for people like us to find a proper life to live with or even someone to be with. It just make me sometimes felt that... never mind. It's all gibberish after all. Like black snake moan. And now I feel that my Cain's Mark hurt again...

Monday, February 23, 2009

Sanzi Family Trip 全家遊三芝~不是你家喔!

Sanzi Family Trip 全家遊三芝~不是你家喔!
終於帶了全家~少一個三姐~去三芝出遊走春 ~雖然櫻花掉光光了~剩下一些殘枝~但還是 玩得很開心~又去吃小籠包和德國豬腳~希望 下次能早一點來~好多都沒玩到!!!
Finally~get my family (except Tracy, busy at work) to visit Sanzi! Although the cheery flowers were shatters cause the heavy rain days before, there's some left. the temple is so great and we of cause were having a big feast at Smocky Inn! We had a lot of fun there for sure! Hope we could come next time earlier for more spots to visit!

寄件者 Sanzi Family Trip 全家遊三芝~不是你家喔!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

真實與虛華

再真實的
都很有可能是假的
再虛假的
也有可能是真的

真實不真實
已經不再是個問題!

The most realest thing
can be fictional
the most unrealest one
sometimes
can be authentic

To be or not to be
that is now not the question.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Junior Reunion Spring 2009

Everyone seen to be a lot more different from the look of old times. Some are much good looking some are cuter some became Casanova some are mommy (actually one honestly.) No until the time came can we finally touch the true meaning of "Time & tide wait for no man" I'm not the "no man" surely I felt a lot about it. Sometimes sad eventually, but mostly are the tears of joy & happiness after I had been through all that from last year or shall I say past ten years. ><... It's really a pity that I didn't bring my cam there. Man~~ What a waste of spending all that money for that bloody camera!! And the feeling even getting stronger after seeing that stupid pictures they sent me~ haha~ what a shame that we couldn't take a proper picture together, isn't it?

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Happy New Year 2009 Firework @ Danshui

Make a wish then!!! May all the bad luck gone with the firework! may all the good lucks bring home!!
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寄件者 Firework 2009 new year

Happy New Year! Myself...

With the firework of the whole new age, I cannot help wonder if I can ever write something as to find a lifetime companion. Or at least for a while.... :P Happy new year happy new year, myself... Alone isn't making me sadder neither happier. But am I kind of enjoy the life of being alone?

Solitude...
lead me more away from the real world, 
the world of ever chaos & troublesome. 
There I find a cage and enprison myself in it.
no more clear sky, no more free air out here & there. 
I only find myself a little freedom here in my own cage. 
Now now cut off my wings and put them onto thy wounds 
pretending having one. 
No more tears in thy dreams. 
No more pain... 
There there, my heart, 
no more sad days & uncertainty. 
No more doubt & hesitation. 
For in thy cage, 
you will be free... 

With the sparkling fireworks, my tears' tried. The Cold air recalls my humanity. I can again feel the warm breath through my lips. Here, I live... ugly but free.